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Wednesday, June 13, 2012

A Step Forward

I wanted to give a quick update for those who actually follow my blog [GOLFER!! my only fan...you rock!].

As much as I would love to be the crazy me that will skip around your ars and make up a stupid song... its not me right now.

I made a huge step today. I confessed the deep agonizing things that have been on my shoulders for years. I don't like to open up to people and put out my business but who better to spill to then your pastor.
I haven't made much progress in the book but I plan on continuing along with church help. I WILL be transformed and made new. I will NOT allow the devil to win. I wish I could put into words how I feel but it doesn't matter. Jesus is on my side. No relationship ending in a broken heart (wish I had a warning on how bad that would be sheesh) or school falling through or everything else that is a completely wreck; matters as long as I have Jesus.

On the good side... a couple months ago I found out/ realized I had lumps( haha) in my boobs. Of course I freaked out but after tons of prayer from my brothers and sisters... I went to the doctor and found out it is all good. PRAISE REPORT WOOP WOOP! Major waterworks today. That's pretty huge for me.

In random news... I was planning on going to my first book signing tomorrow but eff that. Some things have to be sacrificed in order to keep sanity.

Anyways I'm dying of sleepiness at the moment but I want to be clear... everything I have written on this blog will stay as is. I wont remove post for any reason. I wear my heart on my sleeve (plus my eyes always betray me) and anyone who knows me knows I have nothing to hide. If you have a question just ask.