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Monday, September 26, 2011

Slowly loosing my mind!

I hate to spill myself over this stupid blog but when theres no one to talk to and your surround by unsaved obnoxious people you don't really have much of a choice[but to talk to yourself haha]. SO...as you may or may not know my dad has Anaplastic Astrocytoma [stage 3 brain cancer]. He had a brain tumor [the size of a mans fist] 2 years ago removed and about 80ish percent was removed. He has had radiation and chemo for about a year an half. BUT [there is always a but apparently] he is back in the hospital. He had the usual seizure [same as stroke] and we rushed him to the hospital where they found out he has a bleed in his brain along with more swelling [always has brain swelling so this is more and abnormal] which seems to be active [weird] which means its gathering to make a new tumor which also means cancer is back and moving fast. one problem is because he has stage 3 [which means is super fast] the tumors usually grow back stage 4 and there is no hope in stage 4 [worst kind for brain cancer]. As much as they try to make us feel better but also make sure we understand what we are facing...he had another seizure the following day [night before last]. We have always known of what may happen but I know God is bigger and can do anything. He has already healed my dad in many ways and has had His hand on him but the truth that I'm facing [many of you I'm sure wont agree with this] is why should God heal him now when He isn't getting any glory from my dad or any of my family. all they do is rub their stupid rosary beads and the whole shebang [just read how its spelled in a book a few hours ago haha] so as I said before why should He heal him. My dad isn't saved so all I can do is pray for His salvation [please do the same]. This just all sucks. I feel so alone through this whole thing. I'm trying to seek God's face and get strength from Him but deep down inside I want to curl up in a ball or just run away. Everything else seems to be going down hill as well. Some people I wish were by my side seem to be further then ever before which is just giving me more of a heartache. I hate to feel this way and just be so damn defeated. This is me venting. I'm someone will yell at me which sucks but just know I'm trying to keep God first no matter what. It's just hard to go fall into depression when my whole life that's the first thing i grab onto. The worst part of all this is i really [with everything in me] want to run away from this hell hole. I know doing certain things would be doing just that which obviously wouldn't be of God but there is that stupid part of me that's like what if all this is happening because God wants you to ... if u cant tell I'm not telling you what that is [don't want to get yelled at even more...totally not in the mood right now lol]. I still haven't gotten my acceptance letter from Liberty and my deadline is on wed. I feel like every time i talk to them I'm further away from getting accepted in time. its the one thing I'm actually excited about even though i can think of only a few people [that matter] that are just as excited but not some that mean more then any of them. [adding more to the heartache]. Have i mentioned i hate being a mess like this. it feels so out of character yet for the past idk close to a year that's all I'm getting. On a good note. cant wait for Greg X Volz to come to House Of Mercy on Oct 18th!!! hope to see you there!

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Jumping Off Bridges Into LU

I'm sorry I haven't updated in a while. I been busy and lost in my own brain. plain crazy thats all I can say. So I guess I will give a quick update on whats been going on lately.
Yest. I applied at Liberty University [online]. I'm excited and nervous. Even though going to the campus would be a pretty cool experience, I have more important things holding me back. It's funny though because I was so pooped that I couldn't go to Regent because I never did my SATs [i kno im like the only person in the world who hasnt lol] but I'm so happy that Liberty is the winner. I'm ready to get decked out!!


Soooo my brother [in Christ] has been in town and I have been meaning to give him a gift but I'm a re-tard and haven't done it. We have a nice [very sweet] game going on and I figured I would take it to the next level and BEAT HIM [bwahaha lol]. Sr. Nestor I officially win. There is no way to come back after this lol.


I have found a new love/obsession lol its pretty bad you can ask Golfer but its my little secret so ssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhh... here is a video so you can fall in love as well....ANTHEM LIGHTS [BRANDON PAUL!!!!! HAHAAHAHA]


I want to finish off with trying to get women to understand something. The way you dress, the way you act, everything in you, you need to examine. As women we are to pray for and lift up the men; not bring them down and lead them to sin. The seductive spirit is a disgusting and VIOLENT ! As women we don't know exactly what goes though a guys head but that doesn't make it right for you to allow such a wicked spirit to consume you. How dare you bring your brother down because you want to dress like a whore and get every guys attention. It falls on your head for spiritually killing them. We are to dress modestly NOT SEDUCTIVELY! I know how easy it is to allow that spirit on you but thats why we are to constantly be examining ourselves. This world encourages women to show off every inch of them but thats why we are not to conform to this world!

Proberbs 7:20-23
With much seductive speech she persuades him; with her smooth talk she compels him. All at once he follows her, as an ox goes to the slaughter, or as a stag is caught fast till an arrow pierces its liver; as a bird rushes into a snare; he does not know that it will cost him his life.

Proverbs 7:24-27
And now, O sons, listen to me, and be attentive to the words of my mouth.Let not your heart turn aside to her ways; do not stray into her paths, for many a victim has she laid low, and all her slain are a mighty throng.Her house is the way to Sheol, going down to the chambers of death.

Friday, September 2, 2011

Greg X. Volz

Lead vocalist for the legendary rock band Petra, Greg X. Volz, will be at House of Mercy on Oct. 16th, at 10am. 1900 South Congress Avenue, West Palm Beach, FL 33405

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Back home?

This is the coolest putter case thing I've ever seen! [Golfer you rock my socks!]

Friday, August 12, 2011

You know your not in Florida when try sell this in a gas station

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Day one FLGAVA

So we have arrived at this amazing place. Too bad its only for 1 night but Im totally loving it. After 10 hours on the road my butt needs a break. When we get to location no. 2 I will upload pix.
The Golfer says screw back road country
We are off to dinner ...

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Road Trippin'

In a few hours the Golfer and I will be getting on the road for another lovely [God filled] golf trip.
I hope to get a few people with my pointing game on video. I'm sure Ivan and Jonathan will love that haha.
I'm going to miss lovely boyfriend. I hate being so far away from him =[
I'm sad to say I'll be missing church tomorrow, Thursday and Sunday but the good news is I'm on a mission to come back from this trip on fire and refreshed. I will NOT allow the devil to bring me down!!!
I really don't understand people sometimes. I think some people need to get punched in the face every once in a while as a refresher haha
SO... fun little experience today. The Golfer decided she wanted to put me out and tell the world I know nothing of guns haha you big dummy! Its ok because I'm learning =] Girl with Gun Pictures, Images and Photos
I will be updating as the trip goes on and hopefully get a few things up that I've been wanted to put.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Weird But Still A Jesus Freak

To start things off, I have a gift for my brother [in Christ]. I saw this and thought of you! Hahahahaha, I crack myself up. We all really miss you. Stay strong in the faith!

I saw Zoo Keeper, you have to watch it! It was so funny. Worst part was the before the movie and after the movie. Before the movie: my brother and cousin just walk in the movie theater [no tickets] and I’m like what the prunes?! Right, so this SUPER geek comes up to me [missing 2 teeth by the way] and starts asking me about these comic books movies! So I’m trying to get away and I’m ready to throw something at this kid [so wanted to laugh though] and I see my cousins n brother laughing their butts off at me!!!!! So I call my bro and he comes out and I’m like your such an ass hole! And my cousin says so what did Harry Potter say? Hahaahahahaha!!!!!!! Moving on……. After the movie: [back story= I hate when people are obviously looking at you, I always feel awkward and I get fidgety] soooooo we are walking to the car and this guy literally stops what he’s doing and stands there looking at me [HATE THAT] so of course I feel awkward so I squeeze my soda and the lid pops off and almost explodes out the cup and I almost drop the stupid cup! Dude, can I be anymore retarded lol

I am so sad to see borders go. It has been a place I have loved for many years. It’s amazing that when I finally get the membership that’s when they decide to close but WHAT EVER! My only beef about it is, all the books and stuff that was on sale Tuesday…they bumped up the prices! The majority of it is at regular price [which is super gay]. In the end, I will surely miss borders.

Finally, yet the most important of all...

Paul called them by name and so will we…

1 Timothy 1:20; 2 Timothy 4:14

A false witness will not go unpunished, And he who tells lies will not escape. Proverbs 19:5

But false prophets also arose among the people, just as there will also be false teachers among you, who will secretly introduce destructive heresies, even denying the Master who bought them, bringing swift destruction upon themselves. Many will follow their sensuality, and because of them the way of the truth will be maligned; and in their greed they will exploit you with false words; their judgment from long ago is not idle, and their destruction is not asleep. 2 Peter 2:1-3

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

The beginning of Something New

This is my first post. I never thought I would actually do this but here I go. I originally wanted to start with while my golfer and I were on a trip but that obviously didn't happen. ANYWHO! This blog is going to be a little bit of everything. [hope I get some haters] For starters I will share with a video from Wretched. I don't know how many of you have heard of the dummies from Westboro Baptist...well this is a reply from the KKK for protesting at a soldiers funeral.

My golfer is currently visiting family [poor child thats never good.] I miss her so I figured I'd post some pictures from our vacation/tournament.

I will leave you a few words from Charles Spurgeon: "Is sin so luscious that you will burn in hell forever for it?"